Getting used to goodbyes

"You meet different people each semester, I guess you're used to say goodbye by now" was a comment I got once from an international student in my university. I've made many friends with foreign students and each semester I had to see people leaving hoping we would meet again. My response on that moment was: "you don't get used to say goodbye, it is sad every time". I guess I could add now that you learn that people who matter will stay close to you, even if you are miles apart, or you go without talking for years. During my time in London I spent some days with a friend from High school whom I haven't seen for 10 years. She was a good friend then and it's a good friend now.

It's that moment again, the time for a change in my life, to move and leave my life as I know it behind. It's time for a new adventure. Time to be transplanted somewhere else. I knew this time will come. My time in London was limited and it passed so quickly. When I was traveling I only thought about the new thing, the next journey. Time wasn't spent on good-byes because they were only short trips. Yesterday I realized I'm leaving, and I remembered that it's always sad to say goodbye. So now I'm using these few days as days to sink into the soil that I'm in now, and enjoy. Take the most out of it, enjoy the company of those who will become distant for an uncertain time.

It's great knowing that I'll be missed, and feeling sad about moving on. That's when you know you've made a difference, when you've made an impression and somehow leave a legacy behind you. It's also great to be happy about what's coming up. It keeps you motivated, keeps you going. That bittersweet feeling is telling you you're doing something right in your life, specially if there's more happiness in it.

So the time is soon to come. After a year of travels, I've learnt that people will always be there. A friend will remain your friend, even if time goes by and you don't see again, the memories will remain. It'll be sad, a bit nostalgic leaving people behind, but we need to keep moving, keep living our life. It's never a good-bye, it's a see you later. Even if the later doesn't happen, you can remember there was someone there for you and great memories were created.

No es un adiós...

No es un adios, sino un hasta luego. Decir adios significa aceptar que no nos volveremos a ver, y por qué somos nosotros los que decidimos eso? Yo no quiero decir adios, quiero volver a verte, aunque las cartas, el destino o la suerte digan algo más. 

Son dificiles las despedidas, todos los sabemos. Esa incertidumbre de no saber cuando volveras a ver a tu familia y amigos. Ese sentimiento de que estas dejando atras toda una vida, todo lo que pudo haber sido, que cambias el ES por el SI HUBIERA, pero sabes que es la decision correcta, no hay arrepentimiento ante la nueva vida que esta por venir. No me asusta lo que vendra, o si lo lograre; me aterra pensar que podria no verte de nuevo. Que al cambiar mi vida de direccion me pierda de tu vida, solo tengo fe en que nos volveremos a encontrar.

Este viaje es lo que siempre he buscado. No se que encontraré, no sé lo que estoy buscando. Solo sé que es lo que quiero, lo que necesito, lo que anhelo. Realmente no se nada, no se cual sera el siguiente destino o lo que me aguarda en la siguiente ciudad. La vida está llena de aventuras y aprendizajes. Quiero saber qué hay allá afuera, quiero conocer el mundo, ver todas sus maravillas y crecer cada dia mas como persona.

No te puedo explicar lo que busco, no sabria decirte qué me motiva a tomar este camino, puede que lo entiendas algun dia, probablemente cuando veas en lo que me he convertido. Tal vez entonces comprendas que no fui egoista o ingenua. Que todo era parte de un plan que yo sé va a funcionar, porque asi es la vida, sucede y las cosas que tienen que pasar pasan. No te voy a convencer, pero asi veo yo la vida.

Te voy a extrañar mas alla de un chingo, incluso habra veces en que pueda pensar que fue un error, pero no lo es. Tengo alas y debo usarlas, QUIERO usarlas!

No es un adios, sino un hasta luego, pues estarás conmigo en todo momento. Quizas lo dije, quizas lo olvidé, pero eres una gran persona y me has enseñado mucho. Cuando esté triste, ahí estarás, recordandome que tengo la fuerza de seguir adelante. No es un adios pues nos volveremos a ver, no me despido porque aquí estaré.